August 22, 2015

I have been so tired from work these days that I often come home and fall asleep on the couch. Last night I was asleep so early that I woke up early, which is unheard of for me.

After I plodded to the kitchen for some fruit, toast, and tea, let the dog outside, then settled down near the open door, with sleepy eyes, I watched the world for a moment…..
the mist hovered above the dewy grass as green as I have ever seen it
there was a squirrel almost camouflaged on the rough gray bark of the tree with just a flick of his tail now and then to let me know he was there
the air was still, slightly eerie if it had been dark but the dawn approaching was transforming it to a peaceful calm that seemed to grab my shoulders and release the tension
the steam from my tea dissipated rapidly as if also being dissolved by this moment
this instant that captured me and forced me to remember that there is calm in the world
goodness encapsulated by things out of my control
peace brought on by morning
another new day
just like yesterday
and the same as tomorrow
a poignant reminder that the day will go on no matter how I approach it
the only toll it takes on the earth is the heaviness that I let it bring upon myself
forcing my soles and arches to sink into the ground constraining me, pressuring my being to remain stagnant and limiting my view of the beauty around me
when the sky clears and the first rays cut the fog like a glistening blade
the light is blinding
even as I close my eyes the blasts of the rays burn through my eyelids
flashing
screaming that I cannot escape them
so I just accept that the beams will shine on my heart
giving me hope
and they do.

Nature’s first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf’s a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf,
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day
Nothing gold can stay.
~Robert Frost

(thank you to my dear friend that was my inspiration to see the light)